Happy First Birthday, My Rainbow Baby,
Before your sweet smile brightened my soul, you were a wish and a dream. You were exactly what my heart needed. Before you, it felt broken. Before you, it was sad. Before you, it was guarded and scared. But you, you were my hope. You were my light.
And then you were here, perfect as could be. Your beautiful cry gave me permission to relax my shoulders and take in that big breath of fresh air. As our eyes locked, my walls came down so I could let you in. You were love. So much love.
This past year has come and gone too fast. I knew it would, but here we are. I’ve cherished these months and tried to soak them in. You have taught me to slow down again. You have reminded me of the beauty. And there have been times when I have watched you sleep or witnessed you experiencing the amazing world around you for the first time and I wonder how I got so lucky.
And I also wonder about your brother or sister that didn’t get to make it. They didn’t get a chance at their journey. And that’s bittersweet, because I also know that if they were here you probably wouldn’t be. Would you have somehow found a way into our lives? I don’t know. I’d like to think so.
But what I do know is your soul was meant to touch mine. What I do know is you fit so perfectly into our family as if you were always part of it.
Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for brightening my days. Thank you for choosing me to be your mama.
Happy First Birthday, my beautiful, gorgeous Rainbow. You are so wanted and so loved.