The Moment My Heart Grew: Welcoming a Second Baby

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baby #2This is a letter I wrote to my second baby, four weeks after she was born. 

Dear Second Baby,

When I first found out I was pregnant with you, I told your older sister first. She seemed excited. For the next 9 months, I stressed about how your big sister would handle a new baby at home. I didn’t want her to feel left out. I didn’t want her to feel like I loved her less. I worried I didn’t have enough love to spread between the two of you. I found myself forgetting I was pregnant at times, in total denial that you would soon be joining our family.

I was scared.

The morning we went to the hospital, about to finally meet you, I was more worried about how your big sister would handle me being away from her while I was in the hospital than delivering you. I tried to focus on meeting you, but it was difficult for me. Your big sister, for the past 3 years, had been my number one priority. But then, it happened:

I heard you cry.

I saw your face.

I held you close.

I fell in love all over again.

The moment you were born, it felt like life was as it should be. I immediately knew your sister would be okay—better than okay. She would have you as a best friend for life. Out of everything I’ve ever given your sister, you are the best gift. And any fear or anxiety I felt was replaced with absolute love.

You need to know my heart has more than enough love for both of you girls. The day you were born, I became a mom to a second baby. And it’s this second time around. I realize that with each baby, the heart truly does grow.

I love you.

Mama

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Vera Sizensky
Vera is the digital director for HealthyWomen.org, a non-profit organization that Dr. Oz calls "the leading health resource for women." Before HealthyWomen, Vera spent several years editing and producing content for the popular digital editions of SHAPE and Women’s Health magazines. Nothing makes her happier than connecting with women who work hard and play hard. Vera earned a journalism degree from the University of Florida and lives with her husband Brian and daughter Lena (born 8/25/13) in Southport, CT.

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